Well it has been a week since Baby Jace has been placed with me. We are adjusting, him better than i am i think. He seems to be getting bigger, but what do i know. He is eating more and more, looking around, finding his hands, and he appears to be a thumb sucker...I still think that he is a good baby...(knock on wood) not that i have anything to compare it too. We are slowly getting into a routine, and hopefully he will start sleeping thru the night SOON...I think that's the worst part of this, is the sleep, or lack there of. My kitchen has been taken over by baby bottles, and now when i need to run out an get something, it is not quite as easy as it used to be. Today we went to the store, and on the way home, i remembered i forgot something. I decided that it was going to be way too hard to go back, so I have to suffer until tomorrow.
I had my first visit from my social worker, not the county workers. It was a lot of paper work, some chatting...and she had to see his crib...pretty easy i think....she will come out to see me weekly, and two unannounced visits a year. She didn't know who the county workers were, and said that a lot of times the foster parent will know more. So i told her that i would leave a message for the worker because i want to know when the next court hearing is, and if there is going to be visitation with bio mom. Of course I didn't hear anything, so today i called the other worker. She called me back within a few hours which was awesome. I will say that even though I work for the county, I am learning a lot of things. I am going to try not to bash the county too much. Anyway...i did find out that this is the 5th baby for mother that she doesn't have. But mother has been calling for a visit, but she sounds high. So it looks like there will be a visit next week, but i am still hoping that this is still looking good for adoption. Will keep you posted.
I knew that this was going to be a huge change in my life...and it has been...and i keep second guessing myself about this decision, but then when you look into the eyes of this little child, who has done nothing wrong, but be created by people who don't deserve him, and has so much to overcome..and it makes it all worth it...I know that most people don't understand the foster care system, but if he doesn't stay here with me forever, for whatever reason, at least i know i gave him the best life he could have while he was in my care. That feeling is awesome...but i hope and pray everyday that I will be his forever family, and that his medical issues will be a thing of the past.
Thanx to all who have been helpful and supportive. It is awesome to know that i have so many great people in our lives. Thanx to Auntie Darby....she has been such a huge help...and we both love her.
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