Wow, I didn't realize it had been almost a year since the last time I blogged. I have been trying to figure out what to do with The Mommy Diaries. I had hoped that I would keep up with the blog, but obviously I overestimated my free time and energy. But I have seen other blogs, and hoping that maybe I can figure out how to blog, but not necessarily just write, but post pictures and stuff. I know it doesn't have to be long just a brief moment or two to document these crazy times. I will have to keep thinking, but any suggestions will be welcomed.
I finally decided, or at least finally said it out loud, is that I am not renewing my foster care license. I didn't come to this decision quickly or easily. Actually I had been putting off the whole thing but I had too. I love my kid so much, and always saw myself having at least 2 kids. I see all these parents with more kids than they know what to do with and each of them seems to suffer in some way. I know that if feel guilty now with one, it will only be worse with more. The real fact is I am not getting any younger!! Honesty, I am a little afraid to have another. Mine was such a good baby, and even on his worse day (which by the way are more and more frequent) I know he is a good kid, I know if I have another that one will be a monster...lol...The good news for those of you who don't know the system, I can still be considered for placement of another child of my kids birth mother. I am considered a non related extended family member, because that child would be biologically my child's sibling. I would at least like to be given the chance to say yes or no, and would hope that the county feels the same way.
I actually had planned to write more, but I think I will leave this here until I can decide what to do with this blog.
