The "Trial"

Here i sit..in the court lobby again...it is so much quieter in the afternoon. There are only two of us sitting here waiting for this case, and the other one is not the mother. Every time the elevator opens my heart skips a beat. I know that really even if she does show up she doesn't have a chance, but still. It is almost half hour after the trial was supposed to start, mom's lawyer has come out a few times looking for her, but she is still not here. I realize she asked for this trial but really, how long are they going to wait for her.  I don't even know if anyone in there knows she is MIA. I know it is not my issue or my job to tell them, but man we are wasting time.

So as most of you know now, this case will now move to adoptions, as mother was not offered services. I sat in court and listened as they spewed all the court lingo, which i don't miss. The mother's lawyer had to enter a general objection to everything, but ultimately the judge made him a dependent of the court. Due to mother's history of losing kids, and drug use they did not offer mother services, and that means this case will go straight to adoptions. A hearing was set for 45 days, which is to make sure everything that needs to be done legally is done, and then the .26 hearing was set for March 7th (my daddy's birthday)This hearing will then decide and terminate mother's parental rights, which then frees him so that I can go thru with the adoption. There are a few things that can throw a wrench in it, but i think this is going work out. No relatives have come forward, though i did get some information regarding his siblings. He has a sister who is 3, so hopefully i will be able to get some info about her, and maybe he can meet her one day.

I am of course super happy about this.  The social worker in me knew that this is the way it was going to go, but as a parent it is different.  I still have this little part of my brain that says something could still happen, but i feel better about it then i did.  So much emotion, part of it is the lack of sleep, the other is raw...i did have a few tears in my eyes in court.  When the baby's lawyer said that it looks good, and that relatives haven't come forward, my heart stopped.  A wave of panic did rush over me, looking 18 years into the future, but of course I was elated.  I was so happy to be able to tell everyone that this is a great step in the right direction.  I know that it has been difficult for everyone, especially those in my life that don't know this process.  So i think this will help everyone.  Wow, just 5 short weeks ago, I was a single woman with a 23 pound cat, and in 4 short hours, my life changed.  I think I am still in shock, but i have been waiting for this and now I will enjoy my child.  Thanx again to all...