I can't believe that this little child i brought home is now 6 weeks old, that 6 weeks ago my life changed completely. He is so adorable and growing so quickly. He is now laughing, cooing and smiling, and today he let out a big ol laugh...his crooked smile, and the way his eyes light up is adorable and worth all of the sleep, i'm not getting. He likes to sit up, and is holding his head up well, and seems pretty strong. The best is the look of determination on his face, and how hard he tries to suck his thumb. He does get it, but then cant keep it in his mouth when he does. It is so adorable, and shows me what kind of kid he is going to be. He is finally off of his medication, which appears to have done it's job. I know he is glad he doesn't take it anymore, but i think i am more excited because now we can finally try to get on some kind of schedule so he will sleep longer. It is going to be a slow process but worth it in the end. I believe he knows who i am and recognizes my voice. I brought him home on day 3, and he has never known anyone else as his mother. I really hope that the people that are involved realize this. My poor cat has also had a rough 6 weeks, he is no longer the baby, the only child. Last week i had to take him in to get his shots, and he gave them a run for their money. He gained weight and wouldn't let him look in his mouth. After we got home, i noticed that he was not the same, but was eating and drinking. I called the vet and they said that stress can cause this and to watch him. today he appears to have returned to normal. Lets just say i had to deal with a lot of poop this week...well the cat needs to be cleaned because he smells so bad, but he wont let me touch him. Such is life.
So his case should be moving on to the adoptions department. I am hoping that all of this just cruises right thru and maybe even finalized by June or July. I am anticipating some issues, more so with me and what i do, rather than the baby issues. My home study was updated, and i was re certified this week, and he has been with me since day 3. I am the only mother he has known. But i still do have some worries,and it is difficult to think that things could go wrong, but i know that i have a lot of support.
Next week is Thanksgiving and we will be spending it with the entire family, including my 93 year old grandmother, aunt, uncle and cousin from out of town, my parents, and my brother and niece. Should be interesting, but fun. Everyone is excited to meet the baby.
I do realize that what i do now, will give this little child a foundation for the rest of his life. WOW...that is a huge responsibility. I knew that before, but when he looks at me with those brown eyes, reality sets in. Everyone says that a boy loves his mother, and will be a mama's boy. I do worry that when he gets older, how i am going to show him how to be a man. While he has some great male role models in his life, i really don't know what its like, and what he needs to know as a boy. I can read about it, research it, whatever, it is still not the same. I realize woman do it all the time, raise great boys, and i have great role models in my life, but it is scary that i could screw him up, and even his relationships with his woman. I know i shouldn't worry about this now, but that's what I do...think and obsess...
Well i am off, maybe even to bed. Last night i went upstairs, and when he woke me up at 1am, the TV was on and so was the light. He has been asleep for about 2 hours, so we will see. He was up for most of the morning, maybe this means he will sleep tonight. My fingers are crossed....
PS November is National adoption month and tomorrow is National adoption days, when hundreds of kids will have their adoption finalized, and will officially have a forever family!!
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