The first month

Wow...It has been a month that this little being has been in my home.  Holy Crap!!!  So far, i think i am doing OK.  He is growing each day, and new things happen.  His smiling, laughing, and "talking" is adorable.  It's weird to think that I have had something to do with this.  Now i know this is what happens with babies...but i have encouraged it, fostered it and rewarded it.  So crazy, he seems to know who i am, he looks when i walk in the room, and falls asleep in my arms at least twice a day.  Who would have thought.  I think the lack of sleep is a norm now and i have adjusted to it, so it doesn't feel as bad. The other stuff makes it worth it.

So we went to court on Wed, and they didn't do anything except set it for trial this Thursday.  Now the social worker won't be there.  Mother's lawyer set it for trial, because they want her to be offered services.  In court the judge asked the mother if she understood that it is being recommended that she not receive services, and that this case goes straight to adoptions.  Mother said that she understood, but had no emotions whatsoever...WTF...I also found out this is mother's 7th child.  The judge asked mother if their are any relatives and she listed 3 that she wanted to be assessed.  This doesn't mean this will happen or even that they want placement.  The other part is that there is a program who works with the county to look for relatives, this is more my concern than the mother.  So hopefully ( i know this sounds bad) they wont find any.  So after court we stood in the lobby with my social worker and the mother.  My SW spoke with the mother about visits.  The visit was set for Friday.  My SW also told mother that it was her right to know about the baby's medical information and how he was doing.  She gave mother plenty of opportunity to ask about him, and she didn't.  Nothing, not a word, not a question, she asked nothing about this baby she gave birth too.

The social worker part of me totally gets it, but the mommy doesn't.  On Friday, 2 hours before the visit, i get a call that says mother left her program, and we don't know where she is, so the visit is off.    We will see what happens on Thursday!

Thanx again to everyone for your support, encouragements and advice when i need it