Shower....or not?

So, I am still waiting....did first aid last week, so now i am officially done with paperwork and classes...at least for now...

As i wait, it gets more and more difficult.  My family and friends are so excited for me which is awesome, and of course they feel that a baby shower should take place.  Here is my thoughts...i get baby showers, but this is sooo much different.  People ask me all kinds of questions, of which...none i can answer...I don't know when, how old, boy or girl, or anything else...so how do you have a shower...and really i don't want to invite people to a party for my "child" and give presents and all that....As much as i fight this, i know i wont have a choice, and this will happen at some time or another.  Here is my dilemma, i don't want to have one, and then have to wait a year to have a child placed with me, or have one placed that possibly doesn't stay with me long term...I don't know...i am so torn...then people say wait til the adoption is final...and i would plan on some kind of party for that, but not a shower...and it could be a few years down the road...

I don't know.  I still like the idea that my friend and i had...An OMG, what the heck have i done shower....LOL...