Oy Vey

Well folks, the word of the week is guilt.  But more on that in a few.

Well it has been back to work this week.  Its like i never left, and already have half a caseload...whoo hoo..never a dull moment.  Tuesday after i picked up the baby i got sick, don't know if it was food poisoning, or bug or what, but it was awful.  By 9pm i felt better, and after a nap on Wednesday I was back to myself.  So weird, again i am so thankful to the Gellers for all their help and support.  I am now back in full swing, and it feels good...cant believe i am saying that.

Guilt....o Guilt how i despise you.  Apparently the real emotion with the kids is Guilt.  First I felt guilty for leaving him at day care.  I did not call them at all, and i know people think i am crazy...blah blah blah...but really, he cant tell me anything, and they would call me if it is something i really need to know.  Also i chose this center, and if i feel if i have to call every 5 minutes, then maybe i chose the wrong place.  I also feel guilty because i didn't really cry.  I had a few "moments" on Tuesday, the first day, but i pushed thru.  Then there is the guilt, that when I leave work at 3 for whatever reason and work from home, that I don't pick him up as soon as i leave.  So i sit there, and feel guilty about it, when i know i really have no reason too.  Then i pick him up, and we only have a few short hours to play, and i feel guilty because i have him playing in his bouncer so i can wash bottles, or whatever.  I still haven't had anything other than cereal for dinner, at 9pm.  Then this morning, Friday, I drop him off at the center, at 8ish, and he is the only kid there...OMG...this will never end will it.  O yea, and there is this whole thing with his stuffy nose, whats causing it, and i feel guilty that it is either me (hope not) or my big ol cat...so then there is guilt for the baby and the cat.  Its never ending!!  With that, i am off to get my kid...