I first want to say sorry to my family and friends for a few things...
1. That I once again got every one's hopes up
2. That I am cranky, unmotivated, and probably not much fun to talk to or be around...
I am sure there is more...but that's all i can think of now. Yet again I was let down this week, and i swore i wasn't going to tell anyone, or get any ones hopes up, or mine for that matter....but i was hoping if i put it out into the universe this time, that would be better luck. Obviously not...
I was reading my posts from a year ago, and I was sooooo optimistic, excited, and ready for anything that came my way in this process. Who would have thought i would be here a year later... very few phone calls with children ready to come to my home, a fully decorated empty, nursery and a broken heart.
Before everyone freaks out...I will be fine...just somehow need to get out of this funk. I know it will all be worth it later on..and I will continue to try to have a positive attitude, but I know there will be bad days.
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