I am seriously losing my mind!! Whoever says that you have to be pregnant to have symptoms, is freakin crazy. I am so hormonal, crying, laughing, crying, mad....all of it...the worst is that Glee made me bawl like the baby i am waiting for...some cravings...but honestly the worst part of it is what i am doing to myself. I am so ready for this to happen, and this waiting is killing me. Of course my problem is minor compared to some problems people i care about are dealing with...and i don't want to whine about it...its worse because i work with this everyday!! This kid would be perfect for me, that one would be perfect....arrrggghhhh....and because i work for the damn county, i have to wait. I don't hear from anyone and it kills me....maybe i should have tried to get pregnant...i don't know.
i am really looking forward to this for another reason, i really need time off. I realize that being off work with a child isn't the same as a vacation, but honestly it doesn't matter...i just wont be at work. I am completely unhappy and unmotivated at work.. I thought the little break i had for thanksgiving might help...but it totally didn't.
The other part of this is that i hate this time of year...always have...and since it started early this year, its more time it has been in my face.
Venting done.....
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