Morphing

It has happened, i think i am turning into my mother.  And i am sure it will only get worse from here.  Today, when the stupid cat (who i was already mad at for dumping his clean liter box) was howling at the baby gate because he needed me right that second to open the gate, I yelled Jace.  LOL...My mother, and my grandmother would always go through every one's name until they get to the right one...including the animals....Then later i called the baby Diezel...so there it is...like i said as he gets older, i know it will get worse, and one day i will wake up and everything i say will remind me of my mom.  Now of course i think she did a pretty good job,  and for the most part it wouldn't be a bad thing...but i swore it would never happen.  Obviously things change when you have your own, and have little to no sleep!

This child is growing so quickly, and gaining weight too.  I picked him up this morning and felt a few more pounds on him.  LOL..yesterday i go to pick the baby up from day care, and the teacher said "he is so bored in here."  He is in the infant class, and they move up to toddlers when they turn 1.  He is now one of the older kids in the room, and besides his girlfriend, there is one other girl who comes, the rest are young, and don' do much of anything as he did when he started there.  Besides his girlfriend who turns 1 next week, and technically should move up.. he is going to be lost...still not sure if that will happen that way.  So again i go to pick him up today, and again she says...he is soooo bored.  So his teacher and one of the toddler teachers spoke with the director, and said as long as i am ok with it, they will send him to the toddler class for a little bit during the day.  So this means he will be in a room with 1-2 year olds, all of which are walking.  This is going to be great for him, but i know this means he will walk even sooner.  He wont be in there all day, but he is only 7 1/2 months.  Every time i walk into that day care, another one of the teachers has a story about him.  It cracks me up.  The other thing that the teacher said is that babies usually don't play together but Jace and his girlfriend actually play together.  Sooo cute.  On Monday i dropped him off, and his girl came over and they touched noses..OMG so freaking cute...

So my social worker comes to see me on Wed, and says she thought of me...they got a 2 month old baby girl in, and is already at the hearing to terminate parental rights.  Is she serious?????  Of course i said no....holy crap, i am not sleeping thru the night as it is...don't think, i mean i know i couldn't handle it right now..

No other news on adoption day...hoping soon!!  I had a good mother's day, low key..hung out at my parents...and he even clapped during If your happy and you know it...the school had the kids do handprints...and the best gift was from Darby and Calvin...its a necklace, it has a heart on it, says choosen and his name...I love it....i wear it all the time...and it means the world to me...can't wait til this is over...