This weekend included cold weather, girl scout cookies, going out to see a movie (Thanx D and C) which i haven't done in a long time...shoot, my netflix movies i have had since November...anyway...i had lunch with friends i haven't seen in awhile, Good to see ya Brandy and Darrick... and got in my exercise walking the crowded mall, and today...I stayed in my comfy clothes today...and did nothing..
I did have time to reflect on the last week....I guess i really didn't know about this process...part of that is the agency worker, but really i thought i knew..now granted i never worked that part of the system so why should i know? I guess I am frustrated...and now that those words were spoken, "they want a 2 parent home." I am afraid that is a glimpse into what is to come. I have made the choice to do this, to open my home to a child that needs a loving home, to have every inch of my life known, analyzed, talked about, and put into a 15 page home study. I opened my home to social workers, ..who the hell cares if i am single or not. Of course it rubs a little salt in the wound, but really why should it matter, i could be a great parent, or even better than any 2 parent home they go to. Sure i will have to work, but these days there are not many mothers, single or not that don't work. My mom worked...and i turned out OK....Besides, I love what I do, and even if i didn't have to work, I still would. I know everyone thinks that nuts...I work with co workers who manage to do it. I do have a support system. If i didn't have to do it alone, of course that would be great, but I love a challenge, thrive on stress and this would just be another part of my life.
I can provide a stable and loving home...that's the bottom line...
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