The fish are.....

biting so to speak.

So i know i haven't written anything in a while, and i actually feel guilty about this.  There has been so much going on, but really the bottom line is I haven't had any news, until today.  WAIT...before you get your hopes up...I don't have a child yet...

So i got two e mails today from my agency social worker..as i look at them, they are children available forms.  Basically, its a short bio of the child with a pic. 

So the first one, is a Japanese boy who will be a year on the 23rd(which by the way is my baby brother's birthday).  Good news is he has had other siblings adopted out, mom of course is a drug user, but the case has been sent to adoptions.  So this is good, as i read further, the child has some medical problems, now i admit that they could be worse, but it looks like he also has developmental delays.  As i think about it, this is more than i think i can handle right now.  Even though i know i may not be the best forever family for this baby, i still feel guilty.

So on to the the next e mail she starts off by saying "How about 3...You would have a great start to creating your own sports team…tempting huh??? lol"  Ummm..not at all...but of course i looked into it.  First positive is that they are boys, they are from So Cal, so that makes me feel good that they are looking all over for me...the boys have not been placed together and they are looking for a home for all three.  The oldest is 4...was Failure to Thrive at birth and has Celliacs Disease(Which i understand to be that he is allergic to gluten). Dad is in jail and mother hasn't seen him since February 2010.  The current foster mother wants contact...fine with me...he may have a speech delay...not too bad...here's the kicker....his younger brothers.....TWINS!!!  They are a 1 1/2, all three are cute blonde hair, blue eyed..Both twins are being tested for Celliacs...Again....i could probably deal with the gluten allergy...but 3 boys under the age of 4....i may think i am super woman sometimes...but not that super...if it was just the twins, i might really actually consider it...but i don't think i can say yes...again guilt..

So i am hoping this is a good sign...hopefully the e mails will be coming, and i will find the child that was meant to be with me....soon...I am keeping my fingers crossed.