And BTW every time the phone rings, my heart skips a beat...
So it has only been a day since my...,lets call it victory...and I am already climbing the walls. When I started this process last year, I was so excited and ready, after a few months I realized it was going to be a long process, i settled in for the long haul. I got into a routine, or i guess was in my normal routine, and i did what i do with work, compartmentalize, and take away some of the emotion so I can live with it, there were a few ups and downs...I felt so bi polar (OK even more so than i am normally) then for the last 6 months, nothing, not a phone call, only a adoption picnic, which was horrible, but that brought back some of the emotions. Then I settled back into the routine, then kicked it back up with this "fight" and here I am.
I apologize to everyone in advance i know i have baby on the brain, and i tend to obsess so when you get sick of hearing about it..just let me know...So yesterday was a total Up, and now i feel like i am down again. i am trying to be positive, and realize that it could be another year of waiting, and that some of this is political and it could take time, but i know that my child is out there, and it is only a matter of time before we find each other.
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