Well...I am officially a year older....BFD...
So today I was online searching sperm donors today. I found one that is described as looking like Rick Schroeder or a young version of Val Kilmer....Yummmy..Anyway, why was I doing this, well one reason was because I was completely unmotivated but also trying to check out my options. Things are moving slowly with the county, but are not dead yet, so that’s good. But I think part of this is desperation, actually I know it is.
The bottom line is that I want a child. Yes I could go and look at hundreds of sperm donors, pick "the right one" and buy 5 vials of it, and hope it works. Really how much different would that be then what I am doing now? I know at some point I will be able to have a child placed in my home, and eventually be a permanent part of my family. If you ask my parents, they will tell you that patience is not my forte. So here I am in desperation mode. Of course I still want to adopt, I want to adopt, not because I can’t have a child, but because I feel like I can give a child a great home. I know it will be rewarding, and a challenge, but I love a challenge. I think that this process is more of the challenge then actually being a parent.
So I will continue to hang in there…I want to thank those of you that have been so supportive, I couldn’t have done it without you.
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